what if. . .

what if this time....FATE is not on our side ?

what if. . this time. . i'm gonna be test again ?

what if this time. you are just borrowed to me. for a while. .?

but what if i don't want to give you back or let you go?

what if ...i can't face this challenger or test. . and i choose to be weak ?

and what if. .i believe fate will one day be with us. . and i'm willing to wait ?

what if ...i believe you are the one for me..? and i don't want to believe in anything else?

BUT what if. . i'm just in denial. .?

what if. . these are signs. .for me to stop. and move on. . or continue and be strong?

what if. . i choose to live in my own world. . in fantasy. . cuz i really want to have you?

but what will happen..when reality knocks my world and YOU are not part of my world anymore. . ?

and...what if.. i'm up for it..to face the challenges. . and u dont?

or..maybe. . i'm not ready for it but you are. .

what if..i'm holding to u sooo tight. but you are slowly letting go?

or..maybe..i am slipping of from ur hands. . ?

what if. . this. . all of this. . are just meant to be. . the memories that will be in our hearts. forever. BUT just as MEMORIES , not more than that. .

a lot in my mind. what if...maybe...bla bla bla

just spinning in my head. these thoughts. .

i dont know. . that to do about it.

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