grateful. ;)

its midnight. just in the mood to type.

im excited and happy happy me! cuz i just re-decorate my room. again

hehe noow its muuch mucch better..more spacious ! and i just loovee it..:)

now i have simba by my side. yes she dont mind im typing like crazy n d music. she is still sleeping like a baby! hehe well d only thing or well...person is my sis. 2moro she's coming....hoyeaaah cant wait. h0pe evrything will go smoothly for her journey. mudahan selamat semuanya amiin...:)

well..now masih tunggu posting. i dont mind..dapat cepat syukur alhamdulillah..dpt lmbt skit..its ok i will wait..:) tp jgn la lambat sgt smp tahun depaaan heheh...

today..well dah lama dh sbenarnya.. i've been thinking.. bout future..

looking at d ppl around me..makes me think a lot.

1)Life: well maybe when we were younger..we plan n think that life will go smoothly..(yep! cuz we still dont know how hard life can be!) .we plan to get married by this age, to work by this age, settle down by this age..live with our parents..or near them..bla bla bla.. but what if none of it are going according to plan..!? what if u plan to get married by 25 but at 24 u still dont even have a bf ! what if u get engaged but after 1 or 2 yrs 2gether..u break up..! so there goes d plan..ruin! then..what shud we do..? freak out..? or start planning a new PLAN for life..? what if we dont get the job that we like. at d place that we hate? how do we get out of it..? or we wud just surrender and accept d fate?

2) Love and Marriage: love..well..sometimes luck will not be on our side..not everyone will end up marrying their college sweetheart, their first love..or their true love..some just get married to someone who love them and can take care of them. so what if..d person we plan and imagine to get married to..and spend our life with..cheat or leave us or just..love is not there anymore..? hurmm...even marriage.. we have the idea that..yeah! once we are married. thats it. its complete..we will live happily ever after. buuut... did u notice..there are many couples who end up in divorce? some even was left by their husbands..or was a victim of domestic abuse.. we didnt prepare ourselves for this..right? we didnt think it will happen to us.. but what if our 'oh so happy' life n marriage end up in divorce? or d husband dies... huh it makes me wonder and think.. what if it happens to me.. what will i do..! ouh . Ya Allah.. mintak simpang la.. i just want to live a n0rmal happy life like evryone else.

seeing my grandma and my late grandfather..from both my parents side..makes me think and smile.. how many of us.. akan dapat kahwin and live together until we are old.. and take care of each other when we get sick..not all marriage will last that long kan.. even org tua2 diorg x tunjuk romantik..but how they stick with their partner thru thick n thin..is just amazing ! i was amazed when my nenek.. at her old age..and penat..really want to stay by my atok's side...always.. cuz she said..atok nanti carik if she is not by his side. atok was sick.. she will hurry to get to atok and get him what he wants. althou she when she was so tired. and i was like..thinking...

and same for atok, if nenek is sick, with cough or sumthin.. he will buy medicine without nenek having to ask, and atok will try really hard to get d best medicine for nenek..he will go to many clinics or farmacies to get the right one. .

and then it struck me" will i get someone that can love me..love me until im old..? and can i love someone and be by his side till d day he die?

aaahh i believe my grandparents are the lucky ones among millions out there..where they get to love each other, get married, grow old together and be by each other's side till death do them..apart..

i wish. i hope and i want a love like that

i want to be able to love someone . not only in good conditions. but even when bad things. bad situations are happening

i want someone to love me. care for me. until d day i die . and im sure. i can do d same..:)

ops. all this babbling doesnt mean im thinking to get married soon or anything! puhleeezz i still wanna enjoy my not-married life! hehe :p

insyaAllah.. for me..i surrender..to fate.. i believe Allah SWT has the best plan for us.. even h0w hard we try to fight or how baaad we really want something

if Allah swt says its not for us, then maybe there are good reasons behind it

as i believe everything..every single thing happen f0r a reason..:)

as for now...im just praying to Allah swt. to give me the best that i can have..

the best school for me to teach.. the best place for me to live..the best guy for me..and the best life for me to have and insyaallah i will just accept it all..

whatever i get.. insyaallah thats d best for me.. positive fa! be positive !

for now...all i wanna say is syukur alhamdulillah..kepada Allah swt for every single people and thing he gave me..i have a big wonderful family. friends that are so amazing and supportive..a guy that loves me, care for me and makes me happy, and insyaAllah soon i will get to teach in school. a teacher at last! syukur alhamdulillah atas semua nikmatnya.. amiin.. im so thankful and grateful. thats all i wanna say. hope everyone else are happy with their life too.. :) wish the best for everyone. amin

ok got to sleep now.

sahur in few hours

goodnight all

xoxo -sukahati-fafa-